i wish

that i could be pretty...
inside and out..

safe foods

*to be added to
[for a low in simple carb, high fat & protein diet]

-almonds
-salmon
-tuna
-avocado
-apples (digests slowly in stomach)
-peppers
-coffee
-milk
-tofu

*must must start eating more salads!! this is especially hard for me but i absolutely must!!!

a little bit about me

i was reading all of your beautiful blogs (believe me, i still do..) and i came across Athena's lovely blog..and was very much pleasantly surprised to see that i was given a Versatile Blogger Award! :) it was much too sweet to pass on, so i decided to take up the challenge and do a little about moi ..

1. I'm terribly in love with a boy whose feelings are as murky and changing as the sea
2. I like watching foreign films and reading the subtitles and listening to the words
3. I like mangoes and strawberries
4. My favorite colour is blue, and i like to spell colour this way.
5. I love flowy dresses but I like wearing jeans whenever I can
6. I've never been kissed on the lips
7. I want to find my soulmate

i'd like to hear from anyone who reads this :) learning more about you beautiful girls is always a wonderful gift <3

don't trip so soon

i have to keep going.
i'm doing well. losing weight. my mom noticed today.

i have to keep going. no more carbs, absolutely no faltering.
salads, soups, water, fruit fruit fruit.

keep going coco. keep doing this.

i must stay strong. keep going until april.

115, here i come.

perfection

so unattainable

but i find myself

wanting it all the more

just an update...

so far my plan of not eating carbs is going along quite well. i ate some white rice today but it was because there was nothing else and i wasn't at home... but i won't do it again. i'm thinking i'll stick to this diet and continue it through the month of april. in the meantime i can make some adjustments to my diet, such as cutting out sweets and sugars and exercising more.

i've heard eating carbs increases insulin production, thereby storing fat. do you girls know if there's any food that decreases insulin/ increases metabolism? any help would be great!

love,
coco

no carb march

i'm not eating any carbs for this month.
meaning no breads, pasta, rice, cereal, pastries, etc.

i should really try to stay off of chocolate, whipped cream and cheese as well. those are my three junk foods at the moment..yuck.

going to go for a run and go to sports practice soon! today my mom said i looked as though i lost some weight, but i won't believe it until i can see it with my own eyes...and on the scale.

adieu,
coco

...

last night i was pinching my fat and this morning i woke up
with both of my arms purple and blotched
....

it's an obsession.

back on track (no.2)

again, i begin.
but this time it's march, and march is a new month. i like it when opportunities for fresh starts come around.

my friend wants to go on a juice fast with me. which is amusing because neither of us can admit to each other that we have eating disorders...we just really really want to become thin. hah.

so i'm going to do that, for five days. tempted to eat because my mum bought a lot of vegetarian patties, meatballs, and salads... but we'll put that off until next week because this is more important.

bought a book, doestoevsky's the brothers karamazov. i don't eat while reading a novel i really like, so this will be good for me.

hopefully i spend more time watching films, reading, studying and exercising rather than stuffing my mouth with food.

hopefully i see some good results. will keep you updated soon, loves!

love youuu,
coco