i want to die
i hate myself i hate my body i'm so fat and disgusting and i want to just die
i don't understand why i am so ugly
my friend and his other friend joke around that i'm fat and they don't realize but i want to slit my wrists and die because i fucking hate myself
i am such a fat disgusting ugly cow
fuck my pathetic life
---------------------------------2:02am
took a hot shower for the second time today
purged
my eyes, nose and throat are swollen from crying
my lip is cut and bruised from my fits in the shower
i think i'm ready again. tomorrow i will fast. and starting now i'm going to work towards becoming thin.
going for a run outside even though it's late. waiting for my mom to go upstairs so i can sneak outside. i'm determined to sleep on an empty stomach and sore muscles.
oh dearest.
ReplyDeleteyou're not disgusting.
but unless you believe it, there's no point in me telling you.
you're beautiful, and loved.
xoxo