to jog

or do my english paper..?

felt pretty during the dance
looked terrible in the pictures
got drunk
realized some friends couldn't care less about me
felt sick when my date held me close

overall it was an experience. i'm just glad it's over.

from an outside perspective i probably seemed happy and excited.

but it's often that way, you know?

anyways, i like sleep because you don't eat during that period and you feel just fine not doing so. will try to eat a minimal amount today and go for a jog

good day beautiful girls.

coco

promenade

going to the prom in a few hours.
wearing a lovely chiffon black dress with an open back and side cuts.
going to feel fat, especially during the pictures.
but i'm going to try to feel pretty, just for tonight.



p.s. Sofia, thanks for your comment. stuff like that never fails to lift up my spirits :)

enemy numero one: chocolate

tried to drink mostly liquids today
but i ended up eating solid food and some chocolate...

on the plus side i didn't eat until i felt like exploding (which is often the sad case) and it's only 5:31 pm meaning if i dont eat anything for the rest of the day i can still be fine.


here's to a better tomorrow!

suggestions?

i'm embarking on a liquid fast for the whole week. i don't want to faint, or lose so much energy that i'm unable to go about my regular schedule (study, exercise, socialize).
suggestions?
what drinks should i stick with throughout my fast? i know i should take a lot of vitamins...

by the way i have a lot of testing this week, as well as prom the following weekend...

this won't do.

i've moved to tumblr with tons of friends from school following me, but this cannot do. i can't ignore the girl inside, whispering, begging me to stop fooling myself any longer.

i cannot hide from myself. her, me.

i'm back, and this time i think it's for good.

i'm celebrating my return with a week-long liquid fast.

sorry for hiding for so long, lovelies. i'm here to stay.

xoxo,
coco

hello again...

i am struggling...
with prom coming up (i got asked in a very cute way :), summer vacation coming soon, and more reasons to not cover myself in layers and layers of cloth, i'm terrified.

i'm disgusting. i can feel the fat on my face, arms, legs, belly and neck. i just hate all of this and i want to step out of my own skin...or change it.

i must, must, must change. i really must. and i'll do whatever it takes to become thin by the end of this month.

bear with me, lovelies. i'm trying yet another time.

coco