the only way i can starve is to finish my fucking finals and have my college apps out of the way. then i can lock myself in my room and watch foreign films all day, without a single bit of food touching my lips.
i can hike deep into the mountains with a copy of Faust and a blanket and some water, and read for hours and sleep in the sun.
i can go to the beach and listen to music and watch the sky change colors.
i can spend the night with a boy i like watching the city and the stars smoking weed
i can go swimming at the gym for hours
i can lie in my bed until 1pm and feel my ribs and hipbones and feel happy
does this sound sick? i feel giddy just thinking about this..