i am no longer dating the boy.
he told me sweet nothings and made my heart beat abnormally fast
made me smile and smile and smile
made me happy.
made me feel pretty.
but he lied, he denied everything, and he didn't want to be "tied down".
this morning i felt a heaviness in my heart. a hole the size of a crater in my chest. i wondered how i could fix this, tried desperately to erase the feeling of terrible nothingness in my being. i forced myself to eat because i literally felt like collapsing, but i couldn't sleep.
i then proceeded to feel a little better after watching some youtube videos (self help videos, british reality videos, make up tutorials...) and eating some food.
i went on a long run today, and at this rate if i keep running daily i'm going to lose weight :) i'm already slimmer now and i can see it in my collarbones. hopefully i drop all this weight by the end of summer!
any suggestions for healthy eating, things to do on my free time, beauty tips.. ?