is it really that difficult to control?
are we not more than carnal beings?
is not the soul stronger than the body?
i know i want to be thin because i find it appealing. but there is more. i want to be in control of myself from the spiritual level. i do not want to eat in order to satisfy some insatiable emptiness from within. that emptiness is not hunger for food. it is hunger for something else. for life, for love, for knowledge, for something. but not food.
until then i will keep fighting. until i can decide when to eat. and to eat because it nourishes me, not because i am a mess.
what does eating mean to you? and the reverse? why do you choose to restrict yourself, if you do?