oh, i know i'm being immature.
i know this will have to pass eventually.
but i really just can't seem to get over him!
i've tried and i've waited but each day is painful and long and all i want is for him to love me back and realize i'm the one for him.
all i want is to have someone for myself.
i feel sick with jealousy that any other girl might capture his attention.
it makes me weak, helpless, empty inside to know that his feelings for me are dead. cold.
maybe i need to really lose weight? maybe then i'll be more attractive. and confident.
i have these phases where i feel desperately in love and dying of lovesickness, and another where i feel calm and rational and know that everything is going to be okay, and that my time will come.
except the latter doesn't happen very often, and i'm usually dying of lovesickness.
what should i do?! i want us to be like Harry and Sally except minus the long wait and hurry up to the happy ending.
i want my happy ending.