don't be lonely, he tells me.
don't be scared. you're not lost. i'm here for you. i was always here for you.
he wipes my tears and holds me close.
i love you. i love you. i love you.
i will never leave you, even if the world threatens to fall apart. even if there is no one else left to turn to, i am here.
my heart aches and aches and i want to believe him, but i feel the doubt and hurt of my years holding me back. but little by little i am letting him into my heart.
one day, i'll believe truly that i am loved. and i will welcome it with tears of joy.